Monday, March 9, 2009

I keep having this recurring dream...

This recurring dream revolves around me not being able to shoot a gun.

The situations change, but the same theme is there.

I've had dreams where I was a cop, I was protecting my home, I was a good Samaritan, I was a criminal getting away from the police, even one where I was having a water fight with a supersoaker.

There were a one or two dreams were I was lucid and was able to will my gun to fire bullets. But now that doesn't even work. It has gotten to the pint where if I fire a gun and it doesn't work, I [i]know[/i] it's a dream.

Now, I'm no dream therapist, but I am fairly certain I know what it means.

Simply put, it means that in my life, I don't "pull the trigger" enough. Which almost goes without saying.

Hell, I know I should. Now I know what all those math-illiterate people in high school felt when I explained the reason behind the idea derivatives. They didn't get it and I kept asking myself, "why not? It's so simple." Fast forward to now. People ask me, why don't you just ______________ (any number of things) and I reply, "I just can't/won't don't want to" and people respond, "why not? It's so simple."

Sometimes, I wish I wasn't me...

1 comment:

  1. There's got to be a way to break the habit of not pulling the trigger. Obviously, I'm not the one who would know, but there's gotta be someone out there he used to have the same issue and overcame it. I'd like to meet this guy or gal