Friday, March 20, 2009

Haven't been on here in a minute...

I haven't forgotten about this...yet.

I've been working on some big things. Looking to put what I have learned into action.

I swear I'll be back with some updates.

Monday, March 9, 2009

I keep having this recurring dream...

This recurring dream revolves around me not being able to shoot a gun.

The situations change, but the same theme is there.

I've had dreams where I was a cop, I was protecting my home, I was a good Samaritan, I was a criminal getting away from the police, even one where I was having a water fight with a supersoaker.

There were a one or two dreams were I was lucid and was able to will my gun to fire bullets. But now that doesn't even work. It has gotten to the pint where if I fire a gun and it doesn't work, I [i]know[/i] it's a dream.

Now, I'm no dream therapist, but I am fairly certain I know what it means.

Simply put, it means that in my life, I don't "pull the trigger" enough. Which almost goes without saying.

Hell, I know I should. Now I know what all those math-illiterate people in high school felt when I explained the reason behind the idea derivatives. They didn't get it and I kept asking myself, "why not? It's so simple." Fast forward to now. People ask me, why don't you just ______________ (any number of things) and I reply, "I just can't/won't don't want to" and people respond, "why not? It's so simple."

Sometimes, I wish I wasn't me...

Saturday, March 7, 2009

Don't ya just wish... would walk up to a girl and say "Hi, I think you look very pretty. I would like to spend a little time with you, get to know you?" without her being a total bitch?

I mean, shit, why are some women such bitches when someone actually talks to them like a human being not some hottie looking to get fucked?





Alright, I'm fine now.

Wednesday, March 4, 2009