Well, Obama is the President...

...time to go to work.

Real Men vs. Little Boys?

We have all heard women say this. They want real men, not little boys.

But seriously, I don't know how a woman would differentiate between the two.

Maybe that makes me a little boy.

I mean, what does it really mean? How would a woman answer that? I really wish women visited this blog so that I can get an answer.

I mean, do real men co-host dinner parties, take out the trash...without (too much) complaint, call their girls in front of their boys without trying to hide it, pay bills on time, own a car? Are these the hallmarks of a man?

What about a boy? Do boys play Madden, live at home, work steady "professional" jobs with little to no ambition, hang out with their boys for hours without calling their girls? Are these boy tendencies?

What if a guy does things from both lists? Does that make him a boy or a man? Or a hybrid manboy? Is a Manboy better than a boy, but worse than a man? Am I crazy to think that the best a woman can ask for from a man under 35 is a man who can keep his boy in check?

As you can see, I have questions...and I need answers. What ca I say, I'm curious.

Derek

Well...

...I figure you havea newspaper subscription, a TV or the Internet, so you know about the crazy shit happening in the Middle East (well, the crazy, crazy shit, not just your regular crazy shit, the crazy, crazy shit). And I have one opinion...

...I have no opinion.

Not because I don't care, but because I am not really informed about what the fuck is happening. I mean, America supports Israel (through thick and thin, for reasons that are beyond my understanding), yet it seems like Israel is the aggressors against Hamas. Yet, I don't know if Hamas started it and Israel is just going out of control. Is Israel purposely bombing civilian targets (making a statement) or is Hamas purposely using civilians targets as fronts? I don't know.

There are alot of thinks I don't know. Like, why did I make this post?

Or why I made it at 3:20AM on an early Sunday morning.

I'm just weird like that...

Derek

New Hip Hop...

I've been listening to some new music from some new artists. Check em out...



Currensy - Drug Flow

This beat is nice. This is the type of beat that would take me a week to produce and not even get close to sounding good.



Charles Hamilton - Windows Media Player

The beat is pretty average, if you ask me. But it's made completely of sounds from Windows XP. That's pretty creative!



I absolutely dig this track! The beat is smooth, all while using rough sounds and the flow is great! Plus, the chorus is very catchy.



Stat Quo - Another Level

I love the chorus feel of this beat. Can't help but bump ya head!

On a closing note, Stat Quo released two mixtapes (The Bailout a while back & QuoCity recently), but should have been released as regular albums. Both are quality. I suggest you check them out...if you like hip hop.

Well, it's the second day of 2009...

...and I already plan on doing something drastically out of character.

::::EDIT::::

I wonder what is worse.

A) Not trying

or

B) Working up the courage to try, only to realize the opportunity is lost.

B is stinging like a...uh, well...like a bee right now.

Fuck, now I'm gonna have to reflect on this all weekend.

Every New Year, I feel the same way...

"Well, New years are merely symbolic of how another year has gone by and how little we've grown. No matter how desperate we are that someday a better self will emerge, with each bang of a firework in the air, we know it's not to be, that for the rest of our sad, wretched pathetic lives, this is who we are to the bitter end. Inevitably, irrevocably; happy new year? No such thing."

Pretty much...

I hope this isn't a downer.

I know how much my readers didn't like when I talked about future events, like marriages and such.

But I want to say something about a topic we sometimes think is a distant future event, but can happen at any moment...you know what I'm talking about...

Death.

Last week, there was a (very sudden) death in my very extended "family" (if I can even call it that). But still, I see how much such a thing like that has created ripples in my life now.

Which makes me think..."how would I react if this death was 'closer' than it was?"

I know this is something we don't wanna think about. But if you ask me, we should be thinking about it all the time. Now in a sad way, but in a 'be happy for now' way.

I can't be the only one to, every now and then, get that 'cold shudder' when they think that at some point, it is GUARANTEED that I'll die (I should point out hear that the state of being dead doesn't scare me, but dying does'). But I rarely think..."I can wake up and by the time I go back to sleep, my _________ (really, REALLY close relative and/or friend) can be dead." Especially when someone has already died (because it always feels like death happens in groups. So, you think about the next one to go).

But anything I think about was how sudden this death was. And it wasn't an accidental death...it was a health related death. Unless you run marathons on your spare time, you have to think about your own health. I mean, I think about college and I am surprised I am as healthy as I am now. In college, I ate a lot of shit. I was able to get my health under control, but I still have to think,your body is fickle. Something can happen in the blink of an eye. If you're not ready...shit...

I'm 25, turning 26. I used to think I had years and years, 20, 30 maybe 40 (barring anything accidental happening). Now, I can be as safe and cautious as humanly possibly and still be gone in 10.

10 years is not a very long time...

I don't really have anything to say as a response to this...I guess I just needed to get it off my chest for awhile. I guess...I'm just saying...

Derek